This is the first year I haven’t made some sort of resolution. To be completely honest, I’m rather terrible at them. It’s a bit daunting to make a goal to accomplish within the next 365 days in the future. There’s just too much time for life to happen and goals to be lost, forgotten, or just given up on. I used to make a bunch of resolutions because a year is such a long way away. I thought I could (in my mind) do all of those things because it’s a New Year (and preferably a Monday, because all things just go better when started on a Monday) until suddenly the year wraps up and I’ve accomplished hardly any of my goals and I end the year focusing on the negative. This year, I’m picking a word. A word is reasonable, a word is something I can focus on and that can bring me back to where I want to be. A word doesn’t require me to make any major life decisions or goals, it just gently nudges me to being the person I want to be. This year I’m choosing less.
I have an abundance of things in my life that are important, yet I have more things in my life that I simply don’t need. I am surrounded by stuff – a closet full of clothes that I don’t wear, a fridge full of food yet there’s nothing to eat, and friends that always know what I’m doing, but I haven’t seen them or actually spoken to them in years (I’m looking at you, Facebook). My life is overflowing and sometimes it’s quite overwhelming.
I want to take the time this year to have less, for I feel that with less, I’ll have more. Less time on social media means more time to spend actually connecting with those around me. Less beating myself up mentally about my weight and body means more time learning to love myself. Less eating of junk food to soothe an uncomfortable emotion leaves more time to heal and to enjoy living in a healthier body. Less spending money on more stuff to fill our home leaves more money to go on adventures as a family.
This year, less is more. I constantly fill my life – whether it be with social media, eating, watching TV, anything really – to avoid being alone with myself. I’ve made some good strides in bettering myself over the years. I’ve worked really hard on becoming the best I can be, and yet I cannot go further without spending time with myself. Spending time alone is scary – my thoughts, my fears, all of my self doubt – it screams loudly in my head and I tend to silence it with more distractions. I’ve decided it’s time to remove the things that are making me less in tune with myself.
At first this word felt a bit like a cop out. Really, couldn’t many of us do with less? Yet it kept coming to me and grabbing at my attention as if saying, pick me! I think this word, less, will allow me to have more than I could ever want. For the next 358 days, less is more.
What’s your word or resolution for this year?